Pretense and Denial

Pretense and Denial... they are instilled in me. Whatever thing my desire want me to do is continuously denied. Now that my desires are denied, who am I? Reason for denial? It's no good for my future. So I want to be good in the future and therefore decided to deny that desire? That's it. Because I want to have the best future possible. Which is a very crude statement. A good future is never certain. Despite these denials, I still do not know whether i can have a good future. What's the use of denial then? It does not end right after the denial! Deny it and do something else that is more fruitful. Concluded? Yes. Therefore, in conclusion, do something more useful!